I found it. My goal this year, above all other goals, is to be honest. I think I could have avoided a lot of sticky situations if this thought had occurred to me earlier in life.
I recently saw a video of an American guy interviewing German citizens about their perception of American people. The same comments came from ten different mouths. ‘Americans are very friendly, but are not genuine. Americans are very patriotic, but not informed. Americans don’t care about their health. They don’t care about any Country other than their own.’
In many ways I am that American. I don’t follow current events, I find them depressing and boring. I can put on a pretty good show of healthfulness, but the honest truth is that I’m a food binger and sit over eight hours per day. I’m afraid of upsetting people (almost everyone) so I placate, pay lip service and flatter the crap out of everyone I come in contact with. I make promises I’ll never keep and play whatever role you want me to for ten minutes – an hour- a day – ten years – a lifetime. I am not an honest person.
So that’s it. My personal challenge this year. Feel free to call me out on my bullshit because old habits die hard. Yipikaye.